Wednesday, August 26, 2009

I Know...

I know beyond any doubt there is a God who cares, who is here, and is powerful.
My knowledge isn’t based on others accounts or even on the faith I have clung to my entire life. No, I KNOW this because HE has proven He is.

Last Thursday is a day I will never forget. I took my 15 yr old daughter, Marie, in for a checkup and to make a very long story short (and to not break confidence) we were told she might not have a uterus or cervix.

I reacted as any mother would. In front of Marie I put on my brave face and talked about the positive things this syndrome would offer: no cycles, no hormone fluxes, no stretch marks, the chance to be a surgeon without worrying about splitting her time between work and her children, etc.. I searched for any positive thing I could find. We prayed that God would create a miracle or if this was the road Marie was asked to travel, He would give her the strength and ability to live a full life despite the issues.

But in my private time, once Marie and Jeff were in bed, I bawled. I yelled at God and screamed at the unjustness. I was doubled over and broken. How could this happen? God why?

I felt my mind calm and heard “I’ve got this all under control.”

“But God,” I argued. “How? How did we not know? Why? While she was in my womb why wasn’t hers formed?”

“Andrea, I formed her in your womb. I know the why and the how. Will you let me show you? Do you trust me to be faithful?” It was like a bomb of peace hit me full force.

Did I trust Him to create a child with handicaps knowing full well the issues she would have? Did I trust him to hold her and direct her through the trials she would face? In our other trials He has been there with us and has protected her heart and mind, what would keep Him from doing the same in this extreme circumstance?

So I wiped my tears, caught my breath and went to bed. My mind was still reeling from everything, and I usually need to read to calm my mind before sleep will come.
At that time I was reading a pre-released book I was asked to review and blog about. Isn’t it God that the book would be Fearless by Max Lucado, a book chosen for me weeks ago?

I picked it up and opened to chapter 5. Each chapter begins with a scripture and this one was Luke 8:50 “Do not fear. Just believe and your daughter will be well.” (NCV) The tears flowed freely as I read the chapter and I was able to sleep well knowing that Christ was with us and cared. Goose bumps prickle my body when I remember this gift.

The next morning I went to Marie and showed her the chapter. "He does know what's going on," She said. WOW!

Over the next few days, life was far from normal. I fought to treat my little girl as I always have, but when I walked past a pregnant woman, I would break down crying. My dreams of watching my daughter grow big with my grandchild, might never be. I wanted to close her away in our home and pretend there was nothing wrong. Normal life day in and out does not allow us to pretend. When my thoughts would go to that dark place I would hear, “Marie will be well. Allow me to show you my faithfulness.”

Yesterday we had Marie’s ultrasound. To quote the ultrasound tech, “Everything is there.” She is well!

We are unsure if it is a Miracle or if her parts were there all along, either way I know God was with us to calm our hearts and minds. He was there showing us His faithfulness.

Through the coming trials that life brings, I can say that He is faithful and will be faithful. I know without a doubt He is here.

My heart aches for the girls who are suffering with the syndrome we thought Marie had. The families who will never hear those three words, "She is well." My heart aches for their mothers. Please know I am praying God will meet you where you are and give you grace and mercy, that He will pave the road for a bright and wonderful future.

No matter where you are, or what you face, please know that He is there. He can see and He loves you, no matter what. Through what ever your trial is, He is willing to give you His peace.

Blessings

Monday, August 17, 2009

New Update on my Aunt Becki:

I have just been sent a new update on my Aunt Becki who is in the middle of Chemo for lung and kidney cancer.
Please keep her in your prayers.


Buffalo You-Tube Links: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rS7misT3Mag&feature=related http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LU8DDYz68kM

Dear Buffaloes,

I write you this prayer update with great praise on my lips and in my heart for what God is doing in this process. I see Becki almost daily and it is evident she is gaining strength. We also praise God that the often-devastating side effects of treatment have been minimal.

Melinda Scott has organized this weekend as a “Global Weekend of Prayer for Becki!” The insights that are already pouring forth from this are amazing. Our sincere thanks to all of you involved in these three days of prayer and fasting.

Becki and I have a mutual friend, which many of you who receive this may also know. Maggie and Rich Taylor currently serve as senior pastors in Flagstaff, AZ and have served our Foursquare family as missionaries. John and Becki Rusk were senior pastors of this Flagstaff church just prior to Maggie and Rich Taylor. This week Maggie underwent a double mastectomy and many of us who have prayed for Becki have now joined ranks in praying for Maggie.

Only this morning I received a message from Maggie’s daughter with this quote from Maggie, “This is what it feels like to be lowered down on the mat through the roof tiles to Jesus by your friends.” What an amazing example in the Word. These words brought tears to my eyes as I could just see the picture in my mind and heart. I love that God asks us to carry each other. For both Maggie and Becki, many people are committed to pray and “carry a rope to help them through the roof to Jesus!”

I want to take a moment and thank each of you for your prayer support. John and Becki truly appreciate you.

There is an importance of our continued and steadfast commitment in this matter. I ask you at this hour to remain like a soldier who stands watch in the night. The “Word” we hide in our hearts regarding Becki is total and complete healing. Yet, we know in Mark 4 that the enemy comes “immediately” (vs. 15) to steal that Word. If that does not work, then we see he comes “afterward” (vs. 17) to cause us to stumble in the Word, and if these tactics do not work, he attempts to “choke” (vs. 19) the Word out of us. Knowing that the enemy wants to steal the Word from us we must remain strong in our faith.

Our position of faith is seen in the story of the four friends when the Word indicates (Mark 2) that “Jesus saw their (friends) faith” and this is when the miraculous was released! As I conclude the remarks for this communication I am struck by the last words of the text surrounding the story of the four friends, “…all were amazed and glorified God, saying, We never saw anything like this!”

Partnering Together in the Miraculous,

MEDICAL REPORT UPDATE FOR BECKI RUSK

• TREATMENTS: Becki has concluded three chemo treatments and is doing well with the process.

• DR. COMP: Becki will see Dr. Comp, the pulmonary specialist, on Monday, August 17. This doctor is a wonderful Christian man whom we know personally and we are all looking forward to his involvement in the case. We continue to thank God for the amazing medical team that has come together for Becki.

• REPORTS: It will be another 5-7 weeks before additional scans are taken. Therefore, we will not have medical reports showing shrinkage and/or removal of the spots from her lungs until that time. We always have the “report of the Lord!”

SPECIFIC PRAYER REQUESTS

• MAGGIE TAYLOR: Becki asks that you pray for her friend and co-laborer in ministry, Maggie Taylor, as she recovers from the double mastectomy.

• CANCER FREE: These are the days that we “hold our ground” that Becki’s body be completely cancer free.

• SIDE EFFECTS: The drugs that the doctors are using in Becki’s body can cause side effects that could damage other organs in her body. Please pray that her other vital organs remain healthy.

• MINISTRY: John will return to Africa on Wednesday for a short ministry trip (8/19-9/3). He will travel with Rev. Richard Casteel. Pray for both of them as they minister with local leaders in churches and at the Namibian national conference. Becki is asking God how best to utilize the time she has at home to be most effective in the furtherance of the gospel. Pray for both of them as they make ministry adjustments in this season. The enemy wants this couple down but we stand with them in the Spirit to release even greater measures of ministry in this hour.

• SOUTH AFRICA: The national leader of the Foursquare work in South Africa, Pastor Xavier Andriansse and his wife Heather, will travel in the fall to the US. During their stay with us we will discuss the specifics of how to pray for the extended work in South Africa and Southern Africa in general. Please pray for Pastor Xavier as he seeks God. We are asking God to download spiritual strategies to reach farther than ever before with the work of the ministry. There is currently a strong focus on the 2010 Soccer World Cup Outreach. Please pray on these matters and also for the many teams from Foursquare churches all over the world that will travel to South Africa for this opportunity of extended ministry.

Marion

Monday, August 3, 2009

Words

Each morning I start my day with a devotional and quiet time with my maker.

For the past few months I have been using Jesus Calling by Sarah Young, which is the best devotional I have ever found. I blogged about the book here.

Today the lesson was on words and how they can easily bless or wound.
As a writer, wife, mother and friend, I am constantly reminded of the power of my words. I have watched them bring a smile and sadly I have also watched them bring pain.

As a Christian, my words have much more power than to bring pain or joy. Our sermon at church yesterday, was about the power of prayer. When I pray, Christ says I am able to open and close doors.

What’s the connection?

Have you ever had someone say something which led the way to great joy? -Words that literally opened the door in your mind to new possibilities.

How about the flip side; have you ever been told something that slammed a door in your face and closed off all possibility of moving forward?

Words, they are powerful.

My mother taught me to be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to anger. She was handed this advice from the Bible. Proverbs 12:18, James 1:19, and Ephesians 4:29 all give us clear directions on what we say.

It hurts to realize I frequently do the opposite of what I have been taught AND what I strive to teach my own children.

So how do I go forward? How do I change something that seems to be a large part of who I am?

Hello, they are my thoughts!

Only through words- Ironic, I know!

I must be humble and ask Christ to direct my thinking. Pure thoughts bring pure actions. Speaking is an action.

He has promised to help when I ask. By asking Him to help me out, I am opening a door for Him to pour out direction. -Which most likely means MANY more chances to learn how to direct my thoughts and words.

Hope you have a great week.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Reviewing Last Week

Last week ended up being SO much busier than I had planned, but even so I accomplished everything I set out to do.

On Tuesday a good friend from Germany came for a little visit and brought her children. It was heartwarming to see our kids playing in the lake together and God always amazes me when my girlfriends and I get together after being parted. We were able to pick up where we left off and fill each other in on all the family and Germany news.

The same night my family got a surprise visit from my mom, step-dad and niece. They were flying home to AZ from Canada and got bumped in DC. -oh the joy of being a SWA employee- I'm so very glad that we live by a SWA hub because they caught the next flight to Norfolk and stayed for the night. It was a quick but wonderful visit.

On Wednesday Jeff had his class over for a BB-Q. It was nice to see his students and their families. We do this for each class. So every three months a new group troops in and spends a few hours playing in the lake and eating. Jeff teaches a military course at the local Staff College. They are all adults but some of them bring their spouses and children. It's great to meet them and play with their kids.

I accomplished all of my work goals last week, including sending out 5 queries.

I have received one pass and on Saturday I had a request for a partial! Yeah! I should find out within the next 3 to 6 weeks if this agent would like to represent me.

My WIP got a few hours out of me. I'm still doing research and playing around with the plot. It's coming together, slower than my other works but this one is such a work of heart, and those take time. Yeah!

My SINC group loved the Web site I put together for them. I am putting on all of our member info and will share it when I am finished.

I worked out all but Wednesday when I had a deep tissue massage that had me sore and in pain. But I did work out every other day last week. I am starting to feel more like my old self who was in GREAT shape. -before my back injuries and laziness hit! I'm not quite there yet but it is happening.

This week is full of FUN and friends. No work allowed! -besides this post-
My best friend's husband is retiring from a prestigious Military career. Which includes a few deployments, command time and he has been working at the White House for the last five years. When you retire from The White House they throw you a HUGE retirement party and we have been invited! I can't tell you how proud we are of him and his service to our country. We plan to PARTY with him and his family.
I hope to snap some photos to show you next week.

Please keep my aunt Becki and friend Kate McRae in your prayers. They are battling cancer and the fight is far from over. Both start treatment this week and we are praying for healing and strength.

Thanks for visiting me and I look forward to hearing about your week and the goals you accomplished.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Mmmm... Curry Chicken

I can't tell you how happy I am when I have made a meal my entire family likes.



Tonight it was Curry Chicken.

My recipe is a mixture of a few other recipes that I have found.

Marinade
2 Tbs. red curry paste
1 can coconut milk
2 Tbs olive oil
2 limes
1 pinch salt
1 pinch pepper
2 Tbs cilantro- I use dried for the marinade because it does not turn black.
5 chicken breasts cut into bite size chunks

Mix the above and marinate the chicken for at least 2 hours. -I like to mix it all in the morning and let it sit until dinner time.

1 can bamboo shoots
1 can water chestnuts
2 Tbs. sesame oil
1 can coconut milk
1 bunch fresh cilantro
1 Tbs red curry paste

Chop the shoots and chestnuts into smallish pieces. -I use my food processor.
Brown them in the oil and then set them aside.
Add more oil to the pan.
Using a slotted spoon, remove half the chicken from the marinade and cook on medium until just barely cooked.
Remove onto a serving plate and set aside.
Cook the remainder of the chicken the same way and when barely done place it in the microwave to keep warm.
Add the marinade to the pan and boil down a bit.
Add the chopped shoots and chestnuts.
Add the second can of coconut milk.
Add curry paste (not needed if you like less spicy curry)and allow to boil down until thick.
(I have had this with mini corn, peas and other veggies. Add what you like after you remove the chicken. Allow it to cook in the marinade.)

Pour the marinade over the chicken and sprinkle the cilantro on top.

I like to serve with Romaine lettuce leaves and sticky rice. I place the rice on the leaves and spoon the chicken and sauce over it all. Then I roll the lettuce up and enjoy.

Enjoy! Tell me if you make it and how it turns out.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

The Week Ahead...

This week will be a busy one! I have posted my writing goals over at my Quips & Quotes blog.

On the Home front there are MANY things going on.

~Josh starts football practice this week! He is psyched and so are we. I am a little concerned about him getting hurt, but know that I couldn't hold him back if I tried.

~A girlfriend from Germany is coming over for a visit tomorrow. I can't wait! We have not seen her and her children in over 18 months. ~update and photos will be posted on Wed.

~We are throwing another class BBQ this Wed. Jeff just loves having his classes over and I enjoy meeting all his students and their families.

~My girlfriend's little girl Kate will be having a few procedures this week. Please keep them in your prayers and thoughts. Holly is in great need of strength and peace so she can pass them on to little Kate. You can follow their progress on www.prayforkate.com

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Fifteen Years ago Today...


My beautiful Marie was born.

I will never forget the difficulties surrounding us while I was pregnant with her. We went into labor over 2 1/2 months early and fought daily to keep her inside my womb. The Dr's tried med after med and they would work for a little while then stop.

When my body could hold her no longer the fears of delivering a preemie 5 1/2 weeks early hit full force. I was not able to be moved to a hospital with preemie care and if Marie had problems they would have to rush her to a local German hospital which did not have a NICU either, but had better care than the little ARMY hospital I was in.

The delivery went well, but when she came out I was able to see her for only a few minutes before they whisked her away from me and put her under oxygen. I remember watching the nurses and Doctors working on her, shaking her and me begging God to make her strong. The cheers when she she started breathing well and her color improved are memories I will always cherish! Her screaming cries were a blessing to my ears. God is so good.


Fifteen years later it is hard to believe how fast time has gone. She is such a beautiful person inside and out. She loves Jesus and is seeking His will in her life. At the moment she is preparing for a career as a Pediatric Surgeon. She is taking courses for High school students that the local Medical College gives. She amazes us as she walks up to a cadaver, picks up a heart and calmly points out the different parts! Yup, that's Marie! Strong and determined.
She loves kids and is fun to be around. She is fought over by neighbors she babysits for because she is that good with kids. I'm told by many that she is a good friend.

Marie, I am so thankful you are in my life. Being your mother has taught me so much. You and your brother will always be the best gifts your father and I have been blessed with.

I can't wait to see how the next 15 years will shape you.

Love you sweetie!